Ready?

My blogging is about erratic as my moods. I feel sorry for this little online space of mine... But not as sorry as I am currently feeling for myself and my little boy.

Diabetes has been winning my pregnancy and I have changed medication dosages more times than I care to remember and then just as I thought there is actually a possibility that I could be winning my pregnancy instead, my sugar levels decided to give me a big toffee. Just because it can. So now we have more medicine to try and get this crazy ass bull under control. Dont ask about the side effects though. When I first started on the new dosage, without going into all the details, let's just say I was man down. As in, lying on the couch, hardly moving, eating, drinking, breathing, living. Eventually Shawn forced me to eat lunch and even slaved away in the kitchen for my benefit. Good man.

Worse off than my sugar issues, I have developed a bit of a high blood pressure issue. Where this comes from is anyones guess. Currently as we stand right now, I have to measure my BP for the next 3 days and send the results to my OBGYN on Monday morning and they will make a decision as whether to take Jared out next week or still leave him to bake until the 6th of October.

Am I ready? I dont know. I have a lot of mixed emotions. I am super excited to meet our precious little boy, but I am also rather scared. I guess thats pretty normal too though?

Everything is pretty much ready for his arrival. Just a few odds and ends here and there that need to be seen to, but for the most part, I think we've got this.

And because I dont have anything more to say, here are some pictures to end of this post

Room Decor

Dummy Chain (DIY)

Little People Clothes

36 Weeks

Maternity Shoot at 32 weeks

Still Nikki's favourite spot, even if there is no space

32

Greetings and Salutations!!! 

I clearly wasnt kidding when I said I wouldnt be blogging as often as I was.

I got asked on Facebook the other day if I'm still blogging... Erm, yeah, kind of, sort of, not really. 

So doing a quick catch up post has been in the back of my mind since. 

With that being said....Where are we at....?

Change

You guys! 32 weeks! I cant believe it. Feels like it was just yesterday when I was looking at those two pink lines and my whole world changed. Forever! And oh how it has.

Nesting / Hospital

The nesting process has begun. It was a slow gradual process of removing all my personal things from work, leaving only the necessaries that I would need. I go on maternity leave on 23 September, so with 21 working days left, I wanted to be prepared. 

As for nesting on the home front? Maybe I am in denial a little, but I havent done anything with regards to getting a hospital bag packed and I have yet to wash any of Jared's teeny little clothes. I should probably get on that. I was initially waiting until I went on maternity leave, but for the last few days, this overwhelming feeling to make sure I am ready sooner rather than later has been weighing on my shoulders and if I know life, it's got jokes, I should probably take heed. This weekend sounds like a good plan. 

To be fair, I have started making a list of all things that I need to take with to hospital, but I doubt my lists are going to help me if I need to get there in a hurry. 

This is the bag I have chosen for hospital. I saw it online and I know that Cotton On Body in Eastgate had one, hopefully it's still there this weekend. 

Kloof Mediclinic offer a complimentary hospital bag filled with goodies for baby, so I only need to take his clothes and blankets with. 

I also got this lovely baby bag from Dischem, (you can never have enough bags)

I pretty much have everything I need, only a few odds and ends and we're good to go. I think anyway, 

Scans

I went for my 4D scan at 28 weeks. Man, did this baby not want to show us his face. At all. 

I tried rubbing my tummy and asking him so nicely and all three times he covered his face with both his hands. Even the technician was shocked at how he responded. Too cute! He was sucking his umbilical cord, and yawning and sticking his tongue out. It was too precious. 

The last 2D scan at the check up we couldnt see anything again. Jared has moved quite low down and isnt budging. The gynae had to try and manipulate him out of postion to get a head measurement. A rather painful process. 

I go again on Friday. Hopefully we can see whats going on there. 

Selfies

I have pictures from every week documenting my growth. I was looking at some of them the other day. I cant believe how there is this little life growing inside of me. It's incredible. I will do a post document the journey at some point in this lifetime. 

Dad

Jared went through a phase where he wouldnt kick for anyone but me, but now, if he hears his Dad's voice or feels his hand on my tummy, he goes wild. It's kind of sweet. 

I've just been given a swift kick to the side, which means mister is hungry. I best get on that. 

'Til Next Time

How can you love someone you've never met?

Today I'm blogging from the comfort of my warm bed on this winter morning with the satisfaction of knowledge that the toilet is a mere 10 steps from here. 8 if I make 'em big. My 24 weeks baked son is kicking away reminding that this will all be worth it when he is finally here.

Anybody else with vomit enducing heartburn? Mix that with a little bug and you have a sure fire recipe for disaster. I haven't been sick in weeks. It's been great. Last week was I climbed out the shower, I gagged, a little odd, but thought nothing more of it. Yesterday morning, same thing. I put it down to making myself sick from blowing my disgusting snot filled pregnancy nose. (inflamed to the power of 10 sinuses is a real pregnancy symptom. trust me)... Then I started throwing up, at work of all places with a side headache thrown in for extra measure. Went home early and crashed on the couch feeling very sorry for myself... Went to bed early, woke up to get sick and man alive, I was scared.... when your heartburn is so bad and you throw up, it burns your stomach, it burns your chest, your throat and your mouth. It just burns everything. It is rather unpleasant.

There is nothing glamorous about pregnancy. I see how the celebs and a few others do it. Just this past weekend, I had been to the hairdresser, got me some fresh locks, looking goooood. Saw my mothers neighbour.... "Oh you are looking fantastic" she said. "Oh thank you, pregnancy is wonderful" I said with a smug smile. See? I can also pull it off. But... behind the scenes, you're crawling on all fours and some days, you're just so darn exhausted (and the baby isnt even here yet) you've just mustered enough energy to brush your teeth, never mind your hair or anything else. No ones going to see you anyway while you hide out in your little baby cave.

Just the other day, S was sitting on an ottoman and I was straddling him (in a non Mills & Boon way) while he meassaged my lower back. I didnt realise how sore it was until he was rubbing that tension right out... Having a stomach puts some serious strain on you. I couldnt imagine having that all the time. Jeez. #notetoself: make sure you dont get lazy post-partum and get exercising.

I don't know why pregnancy is a real breeze for some and not so real breezey for others. Maybe their balls are bigger, who knows, but, what I do know, is that, somewhere a long the line, the roles are reversed and we wait patiently for that day. It's like gravity, physics, the law.... you can't get away from it.

Anyway, so where are we now, what have we been up to?

There are times where I could have been blogging, but I've been eating, sleeping, squirralling away baby items, getting ready for my harvest. My collection of all things cute and baby is growing by the day. Blankets and little clothes, bottles, nappies, little baby hangers. You know you're pregnant when you look at prams, cots and baby things, the same way you would eye out hot men. Sigh

We went and got the pram and cot 2 weekends ago. Damn expensive transport for a little human being. Like S says, baby making is an expensive hobby.

We have a scan coming up on Friday and then we have our 4D scan in a few weeks from now. I'm so excited for that. I cant wait to see my little boys face. I love the fact that he only kicks for his mama... it's our little thing. He responds when I tap my tummy and he hides away from everyone else. The first time I saw how my stomach moved from side to side and up and down it really freaked me out, but now I love it. Even now as I type this, my stomach has a heartbeat of it's own. I am absolutely in love and so in awe of Gods creation. There is nothing in this world that can top this! I am so in love with this little person, I cant wait to meet him.